Everything Is Awesome

 The last few days have been interesting. Due to the having to leave the country for visa reasons I didn't get a medication refill before I left (I didn't have time or opportunity). So I had to half my dose for about a week to a week and a half. That was ok, however I ran out for half a week before I got the refill. Now I think it's catching up to me. I've been so tired for the last 3 days. Today I've felt down and yesterday I had a higher anxiety level. I didn't have any panic attacks, so that's good. I know once my body builds up the medication again it will stop. I felt like the socially awkward penguin yesterday at church. Kind of just standing around not knowing how to approach people to talk. Being treated like I didn't exist by someone who interrupted a conversation (literally walked between me and the person I was talking to) and acted like I wasn't there, even when someone else came over. I'm trying not to let it bother me, but it was pretty rude. What people think of me is not what defines me. I may not be the typical put together female, but that doesn't mean I get to be treated like a second class person by people as a result. What defines me is how I treat people and how I react to them. I may be frustrated by that treatment, but I'm looking to the root of why I am so bothered by it so I can fix the problem with my attitude as a result of it and let it go.

So far the internship is going well. I have been working on transcribing a film with time codes and everything. I used to write out the lyrics to songs all the time that I taped off the radio as a kid, so I'm pretty good at it, lol. We have started our first of the 2 films for the internship, there are 2 films in this part and in the second half of the school we get to do another one each. I couldn't come up with a pitch, so I'm directing someone else's written work. It should be interesting as she's the DP.

So I went to Supanova (comic convention) on Saturday. There was an actor from The Hobbit, now I've got 5 out of 13 dwarves autographs, so that was the must do one. Alan Tudyk (love, love, love that guy), Jamie Bamber (huge fan, even watched Pulse 2 for him), and Tahmoh Penikett were on my meet list. So I did. Both Tahmoh and Jamie told me to give them a job after school. I said I will, once I write it. I don't know if they realize that I really will go after them as I will be making a feature film or two (ok, more really) in the next years at some point. I geeked out on Facebook so I've lost the initial excitement to talk about it here, lol. All four of them are quite interesting and nice. It's part of the job for them, but they were very engaging. Peter Hambleton (the dwarf in Hobbit) said the world needs more directors that are good with actors, like Peter Jackson. Then he winked. So my current goal is to research the "actor's" directors so I can be even better and communicate better with the actors and in general. The best part was showing an actor that was in Star Wars Episode 3 the teaser trailer for Episode 7 and watching his reaction in real time as he hadn't seen it yet. Priceless.

Ok, back to a random story I'm writing that may not make it to my journal as it may be too long. Oh well, I'll probably use it anyways.