Wow, I hate growing pains. Character ones are the hardest but last for a long time, hopefully forever. Today (Oct 10) I got my locations, just as I was literally going to find another way (aka make another phone call) the last location came through. I spent 2 hours working on the schedule for that only to learn I will have to rearrange it again. I also forgot to take my meds today. Whoops. This post will be erratic, you've been warned. Also I've hit a little bit of paranoia, yeah. Stupid MI. I did change my...I forget. We started filming (on a break now) for one of the projects and I lost my spiral train of thought.
Back to the growing pains. Yeah, they suck and you never out grow them. They are for the best and you have to push through and let them do what they are supposed to do. Especially the God given ones. I know it sucks and I tend to freak out a bit during the process, but it will be worth it in the end. Especially since it's God given and will make me more the person He intends me to be. I am going to do this. I'm here because He wants me to be. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't what I was supposed to be doing. This will happen, it will get done and freaking out will not help, it will just make things worse. Sometimes I don't believe in myself, but the more I do this school the more I realize that I can do this. It used to surprise me that others thought I could do it. I got that knocked out of me (thanks, Proby). I appreciate the support everyone back home and here have given me. Now that I've finished filming I really believe I can do it.
Tonight (Oct 13) we start a 48 hour film blitz. We have 48 hours to write, film, and edit a short film. Yay! I'm stoked for it. I managed to sleep last night for at least 9 hours, which is better than the previous 3 nights combined.
So I really love being on set. No matter how tired I am I love it. It feels like there is no place else I want to be. So that leads in to what next. There are 2 internships, one almost right after school for 3 months and another in May for 3 months that involves a feature film set. I want to do both. It feels like I'm supposed to do both. So if everyone could pray about whether I am to do it or not, and that the money to live off of, and leave the country and return when I have to, would be provided if I am to do said internships, that would be awesome. I need to talk to the staff about it yet. I have to go to a meeting. More later.
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