It's the last week of classes. We graduate on Friday. There is so much to do in so little time and it's frustrating to not be able to work on it as often as I can due to my stupid head. I felt ok on the weekend so I pushed myself. We had to finish filming, I had to go through footage (I personally think there are things that need to be in it that I don't have, granted I haven't even been able to finish watching it all yet), I had to start editing, I have to finish the directors report. All this with a concussion and a stubborn streak. It's not a good combination. Today I payed for it. So why am I on here and not working on the report? Simple, no computer to type said report on. I'll be at it all night again. Such is the filmmakers life, you do the job when you have to and if you can't then someone else will do it and you're out of a job. I still don't want to do anything else even though today is a beat something up day. I hate hate hate being held back in any form. I'm trying not to cry. I am not thnking about after school yet, but I need to. In my current state if I think about it I will forget to trust God and start panicking. I feel so crap right now I just want a hole to crawl in and I am not well enough yet physically to spend the energy to change that. So more frustration because I don't want to be that. Not as frustrating as first shooting week, but it's getting close again. So, anyone want to send me some good news? Oh, I did get double coat Tim Tams for my birthday from Tish. :D Saturday I got as close to a beach as possible (still not a real beach) without actually going to a beach. So yeah. Any awesome things? Anyone willing to support a struggling filmmaker who is trying to stay and get more learning and experience? Ok, done whining. I'm just feeling overwhelmed at the moment I think. Thinking would be good. I'd like to be able to put some cohesive thoughts to paper for my report.
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