Wow...(copied from my MySpace blog)

Ok, I went to the store to print off a couple of photos to send to some people in Fiji, like I promised them I would, and I came out with a job prospect. 3 hours later I now have a second job. I got a job in the photo lab that I applied to a few months ago when I was originally job hunting. The manager looked at my file and thought about it before she put up the ad, then I walked in today and she came right over to me and offered it to me. So I went back later and talked to her some more, decided to give it a go. I already told my boss at the video store, who is ok with it and we will try and work out schedules. The best part is I had been thinking about getting a second job and asking God about it and whether I should get one or not. I need to finish paying off my DTS among other things, hence the idea of the second job. Especially if I am to go to other places for other YWAM schools. I think this is a total answer to prayer. So, hopefully it all works out and I can work both jobs and get things paid off in a more timely fashion. That's my big news on the day.

I'm so out of it...

Yeah, I'm a little out of it. I have been feeling kind of sick for the last few days. Long story short, not the flu like I thought it might be. It was sour milk. I couldn't even smell it, and believe me it stank (based on my dad's reaction to smelling the jug). I couldn't even really taste that it was off, until this morning when I took a drink. I still feel icky, but it will be gone by morning. Hahahaaaaa...Whatever. Anyways, must run and finish my video I'm making from some DTS fun/funny pictures. Currently I'm picking out a soundtrack. Bye.

More of what I'm up to, and a little of what i'm learning...

Well, happy day Jenny had come up to visit me, but she has since returned home. Other than that, I have been on IMDB message boards. At first it was creation versus evolution (Beowulf and Grendel and dragons to dinosaurs and eventually evo. vs creat.) now, thanks to Mel Gibson's mistakes, defending Christianity from the jaded hurting movie watchers. Thankfully I always pray before I post that I don't say something stupid or that defeats the purpose of my post. The last post may have come close, it was truth but the love was a little lacking, but mostly all been in love (I hope it came across that way). Like the Jewish guy who ranted about if it had been against Christianity then we would all be boycotting and burning his movies. I corrected him about the movie burning and told him that I didn't blame him for being mad. As well I said I hoped he and his community would heal from this, and I pointed out that I was a Christian. He seemed to have appreciated the understanding that he didn't feel he was getting elsewhere. I just hope God uses this and this guy remembers what I said so he doesn't think all Christians are bad. It's amazing the extent of the Jew bashing and Christian bashing going on as a result of this.

What I have been learning from all this and before...Good question. There was this article I read about people climbing Mt Everest and whether or not this guy had to die up there. Some people left him alone (he had climbed solo) because they were so focused on their own summit push. Sir Edmund Hillary had said that there was no way that it should have happened. That he would have abandoned his climb to help the guy who obviously needed it. That a human life was more important than the summit. I thought how many times does that happen in life, with the figurative mountain. We are so focused on what we are doing and where we are going that we someone in distress and we just ask about it, but don't do anything. Or we don't even notice because we are so focused on our own climb. Or we do a little, but not all that we can or is necessary. Would we abandon our own climb to save a life? Even if they said they were fine, but you could tell they weren't fine at all. All figurative as non of us would be climbing Everest, that I'm aware of. So that was one thing I learned. As well as really sticking up for being a Christian and having good points and proofs not just quoting scripture and saying non fulfilling answers to peoples questions. Need to live it, not just speak it. Ok, gotta go have lunch...

How I'm really doing...

Well, how I'm really doing...I am really feeling the isolation here. The one person at church that I know that is my age is leaving town, for Alberta. So, yeah the rest my age are families who spend all their time with themselves, if I can find them. So the friend count is low to none, that's just the way things go up here. This isn't meant to be a complaint session, it's just the facts of living in this town. I still love my work and I have fun, most days, when I'm there. I am still not liking cold weather, hee hee, so it should be interesting in the winter. I am thinking and praying about going back to Fiji, or even to staff at Island Breeze for the PQDTS, which won't be running this year. I am also thinking about doing the School of Intercessory Prayer at the base in Scotland that I almost went to for DTS. As well as the Basic leadership school which would help my slightly lacking skills in that area. I haven't forgot about my film making school, or the possibility of the photography school. Yeah, so many places to go and things to see, I don't know where to begin, sort of. So how I am really doing up here, yeah...Back to this. I miss the islands and I miss all my friends, I miss the really on fire church. Not that my dad's church is not good, there's just this annoying lack of passion in the congregation. They come dutifully, mingle and leave. It's a tough crowd. The teens are on fire, but there is a definite wall between them and the older people, and we all know how I act my age. So I am in between the teens and the older crowd in more than just age, behaviour as well. Ummm....I wish we had your heat wave, 31 is fine but I'd feel more at home in 37 degrees. Heehee. Yeah, the islands feel like home, even if it is a patriarchal society (Fiji that is) where the woman's place is in the kitchen and you do what the man says, and we all know how I feel about that one. ;) Not saying anything bad about male authority, just when it feels like control. That and my thing about me not fitting into the typical female roles, I'm a tomboy and my place has never been in the kitchen, why do you think I never got trained for the cooking shifts at work, hahahaaaaa... Seriously, me + kitchen=big mess. Off my lack of cooking skills topic now. I have to go to work, hence my not being at church right now. So, up here I am bored, mostly cold (even at 22 degrees), local friendless and passion free churched. By the way, I don't really feel lonely, even if I miss everyone. Sums it up in a nut shell. Like I said, not a complaint session, just the facts. I feel like it's the wilderness, but as someone said, the wilderness is what you go through after you have done well and God is pleased with you, so I just have to keep going on. I do feel at peace and like I'm resting as well, so I guess that's a good thing. I am having financial issues though, so pray that I can get the things I need to get payed off (DTS and Medical are the big ones, I don't qualify for assistance with medical) payed in short order, so I can go on to the next thing. Other prayer requests...Can't think of anything there right now. So love and miss you all. God bless. I have to run now or I will be late for work.

Wahhh...Kitten gone...

Well, she's gone. The kitten has gone to Prince George and I'm a little sad. That's it for here and now.

Ahhh..kittens...

Yes, so I rescued a kitten. Well the short story is that she was abandoned by her owner outside, the owner told me that they didn't want her, and I brought her inside. She hadn't eaten or drank all day, this was Tuesday. We were trying to keep her seperate from the others, but she just loves to get out and run around, so that failed. They mostly don't mind her, but she isn't staying, that we are aware of anyways. Hee hee. No really, she is supposed to go with my dad to Prince George tomorrow as that is where the nearest shelter is and he's going anyways. More details as they come up, including the picture, you know I have to put one up.

Being a girl sucks...not really, but it makes a good title.

My friend Michelle posted a blog about the focus on the outer woman and how she feels about it. This is a response to her blog as I didn't want a huge comment for her on my opinion as well.

Yeah, I agree with the outward thing. Way too much focus on it. I was going to say that it was one thing I liked about Fiji was the lack of that kind of focus there, but then I realized that isn't true. It's just handled differently there. It can be just as bad to worse the attention from guys because of your looks, but the girls seem to not care as much about their looks as North American girls do. I said seem for those who disagree. They don't fuss with makeup and all that crap, partly because it's a luxury that they can't afford. In my opinion, it's way to hot to wear makeup there anyways, it'll just sweat right off. So there is a different focus on the outward appearance there. It's more what your natural assets are that draw attention, not what you add in the makeup department, unless it's the hookers, but that's another sad story for another time.
Away from Fiji now and back home to North America, for the moment. Do we really dislike our natural selves so much that we feel we have to do drastic things to fix something that isn't broken in the first place? Plastic surgery, implants, botox, extreme diets, extreme exercising, wiping away our regular face with makeup to put on a new one with makeup. For the record, not all makeup is a mask for people, some girls use it to enhance, and others use it to hide. That's partly why I hate the phrase "Putting on my face." It makes it seem like they don't like the one they have or that the one they have isn't the one that is real. It comes across like they are putting on their mask to hide behind in public. God made you the way you are and it is good, so get over it already. Does your life really depend on what others think of you? Is your opinion of yourself based on what others think? Aren't there bigger things to worry about than what the fickle self absorbed world that can turn on you in a heartbeat thinks of you? They don't know you, nor do they care to really know you. Looks are fleeting anyways, you're gonna get old and wrinkly no matter what you try to do to stop it, if you try you end up looking like Joan Rivers who looks like a clown that got hit in the face with a frying pan which then flattened her face, or you look like you got caught in a wind tunnel facing into the wind and it blew your skin back, now you have no wrinkles and a permanently pinched look on your face. I mean come on, how far can you really pull your face back until there is nothing left to pull back? Then after that it probably starts to sag again.
Anyways off that rant. I know I could try to "help" the outside, but I also know what would happen if I did try, and I really don't want that. I want the focus to be on the inside, not outside. Yeah, it's not helping me get the guy of my dreams (heehee), but I would rather win him over with my personality than my looks. That and I am just not a girlie person, so some of the things to make the outside look better are not in my normal personality range. Haha to that one. Plus I am too casual of a person, dressing up is wearing nicer pants and a non t-shirt. So it is difficult for me. As I said before, I don't really care, it's about the inside, not out, and I don't like to draw that kind of attention to myself, it usually means trouble is sure to follow-been there and seen it.
All finished my schpiel now, have headache so I must go. Catch you all on the flip side...