Well, how I'm really doing...I am really feeling the isolation here. The one person at church that I know that is my age is leaving town, for Alberta. So, yeah the rest my age are families who spend all their time with themselves, if I can find them. So the friend count is low to none, that's just the way things go up here. This isn't meant to be a complaint session, it's just the facts of living in this town. I still love my work and I have fun, most days, when I'm there. I am still not liking cold weather, hee hee, so it should be interesting in the winter. I am thinking and praying about going back to Fiji, or even to staff at Island Breeze for the PQDTS, which won't be running this year. I am also thinking about doing the School of Intercessory Prayer at the base in Scotland that I almost went to for DTS. As well as the Basic leadership school which would help my slightly lacking skills in that area. I haven't forgot about my film making school, or the possibility of the photography school. Yeah, so many places to go and things to see, I don't know where to begin, sort of. So how I am really doing up here, yeah...Back to this. I miss the islands and I miss all my friends, I miss the really on fire church. Not that my dad's church is not good, there's just this annoying lack of passion in the congregation. They come dutifully, mingle and leave. It's a tough crowd. The teens are on fire, but there is a definite wall between them and the older people, and we all know how I act my age. So I am in between the teens and the older crowd in more than just age, behaviour as well. Ummm....I wish we had your heat wave, 31 is fine but I'd feel more at home in 37 degrees. Heehee. Yeah, the islands feel like home, even if it is a patriarchal society (Fiji that is) where the woman's place is in the kitchen and you do what the man says, and we all know how I feel about that one. ;) Not saying anything bad about male authority, just when it feels like control. That and my thing about me not fitting into the typical female roles, I'm a tomboy and my place has never been in the kitchen, why do you think I never got trained for the cooking shifts at work, hahahaaaaa... Seriously, me + kitchen=big mess. Off my lack of cooking skills topic now. I have to go to work, hence my not being at church right now. So, up here I am bored, mostly cold (even at 22 degrees), local friendless and passion free churched. By the way, I don't really feel lonely, even if I miss everyone. Sums it up in a nut shell. Like I said, not a complaint session, just the facts. I feel like it's the wilderness, but as someone said, the wilderness is what you go through after you have done well and God is pleased with you, so I just have to keep going on. I do feel at peace and like I'm resting as well, so I guess that's a good thing. I am having financial issues though, so pray that I can get the things I need to get payed off (DTS and Medical are the big ones, I don't qualify for assistance with medical) payed in short order, so I can go on to the next thing. Other prayer requests...Can't think of anything there right now. So love and miss you all. God bless. I have to run now or I will be late for work.
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